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Handball season is soon. In about a month, I have to organize tryouts. Next week, I have to start ordering the uniforms. I have to start playing soon. Most importantly, I’m thinking about one thing. You’re not with me. You’re on your own, but do you remember this one time a while ago you said to me “even though we aren’t together I’m still going to go to your handball games.” It was the one thing I kind of hoped you’d stick your word to. There are a lot of things that we’ve said that haven’t stuck. Like how we’d still talk like nothing has changed, as if we’d always stay in each other lives. But clearly, that’s not how it is right now. So I don’t know how that is going to go for us. Just know you are always welcome to the courts.

I wish I could say somethings, but I’m too scared to be too vulnerable to ever say anything.

I just want you to hold me all night. Hold my hand as we walk. Kiss me when you can and tell me you love me.

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